Sorry to all the people that i hurt you guys.
Sorry to all the people that i made them feel disappointed.
Sorry to all the people that i made you guys angry.
Sorry to all the people that i made you guys sad.
Sorry to all the people that i made things hard for you guys.
Sorry to all the people that i never made you guys happy anymore.
Sorry to all the people that im not myself anymore.
Sorry to all the people that i made you cry.
Sorry to all the people that i cry so easily.
Sorry to all the people that i get sad easily.
Sorry to all the people that i have depression.
Sorry to all the people for everything.
I didnt mean to hurt you. I rather hurt you a little now than hurt you more in the future.
Whether we will get together in the future, let just let faith decide.
As i cant decide of anything anymore.
How badly you treat me differently.
I wont let anyone know okay?
I guess im never a good guy that anyone can trust with.
Somethings i can help us or me, i will know say.
I dont want give toy false hope.
Can you see the future of us?
For me, maybe not now.
But i tried to treat you the very best, different from anyone else.
But to you, its never enough.
As my condition now i really tried.
Whether to treat you differently to others, try my SUPER best to be happy.
And not sad.
You cant see the effort.
Everyone is different.
Different people have different personality.
Different personality have different attitude.
Different attitude bring different quit of happiness.
(:
Saturday 3 September 2016
Friday 26 August 2016
26/08/2016
I need help.
I'm in fear.
Devil is much stronger than Angel.
Angel is not winning, not leading my way.
Hatred within me is gaining
Can you dont take her away from me?
Lead the way for me.
Im lost.
My mind appearing a word.
Is called 'DEATH'.
Hey me, Can you ever be happy?
Think what are you facing.
Life may be tough.
Road may be rough.
Sky may be dark.
Can anyone believe me?
No matter how much im trying.
I can never know what im feeling.
Hatred?
Jealous?
Sadness?
Its just slowly breaking me down.
Im trying to get up on my feet again.
But its not working anymore.
3 words.
DEATH
FEAR
HATRED.
I'm in fear.
Devil is much stronger than Angel.
Angel is not winning, not leading my way.
Hatred within me is gaining
Can you dont take her away from me?
Lead the way for me.
Im lost.
My mind appearing a word.
Is called 'DEATH'.
Hey me, Can you ever be happy?
Think what are you facing.
Life may be tough.
Road may be rough.
Sky may be dark.
Can anyone believe me?
No matter how much im trying.
I can never know what im feeling.
Hatred?
Jealous?
Sadness?
Its just slowly breaking me down.
Im trying to get up on my feet again.
But its not working anymore.
3 words.
DEATH
FEAR
HATRED.
Tuesday 9 August 2016
Thursday 7 July 2016
7th of July
Hello guys! But in the end, There is only one person that is reading it! Hahaha!
My Mood today wasn't really very good, have been so stress out and all from this morning till now, what should i do?
The jealousy i felt so much today was like killing me so badly. She went out with Mr Lee, and only reply me so little for 3 hours. 3 hours of waiting, i know its gonna be worth it. But there is only a boy and a girl outside, nobody else was with them. Tell me then, how wouldnt i feel jealous, how not to think too much about it! Do anyone even understand how i feel?
I know you have school, i have work everyday. But of course i will make time for you, but will you? Im waiting everyday, every moment for you to ask me out, hinting you to ask me out and all. I know when i ask you, you wont so.
How afraid i am to lose you? Umm.. VERY VERY AFRAID! I lose you once, and god made me fall back in love with you, i believe it means something. I know now this time, i will feel so bad, suffering a lot. Im able to endure everything, because i wish that it will change better everyday! I wish that one day everything is gonna be worth of a pain. Its really hurtful, and i just cant show it to you, my friends or my family!
Hello guys! But in the end, There is only one person that is reading it! Hahaha!
My Mood today wasn't really very good, have been so stress out and all from this morning till now, what should i do?
The jealousy i felt so much today was like killing me so badly. She went out with Mr Lee, and only reply me so little for 3 hours. 3 hours of waiting, i know its gonna be worth it. But there is only a boy and a girl outside, nobody else was with them. Tell me then, how wouldnt i feel jealous, how not to think too much about it! Do anyone even understand how i feel?
I know you have school, i have work everyday. But of course i will make time for you, but will you? Im waiting everyday, every moment for you to ask me out, hinting you to ask me out and all. I know when i ask you, you wont so.
How afraid i am to lose you? Umm.. VERY VERY AFRAID! I lose you once, and god made me fall back in love with you, i believe it means something. I know now this time, i will feel so bad, suffering a lot. Im able to endure everything, because i wish that it will change better everyday! I wish that one day everything is gonna be worth of a pain. Its really hurtful, and i just cant show it to you, my friends or my family!
Tuesday 5 July 2016
5th of July
PART 2?
FUCK I HATE THIS FEELING, Im just jealous, im sorry! But still have to act that im strong, act that im still happy and smiling, asking about 'How was it meeting him?' But at least you are happy? Hahaha!
What can i do then? SUCK IT UP!!
Where i stand?
SO
FUCKING
STRESS
ABOUT
EVERYTHING __l__ *MIDDLE FINGER*
PART 2?
FUCK I HATE THIS FEELING, Im just jealous, im sorry! But still have to act that im strong, act that im still happy and smiling, asking about 'How was it meeting him?' But at least you are happy? Hahaha!
What can i do then? SUCK IT UP!!
Where i stand?
SO
FUCKING
STRESS
ABOUT
EVERYTHING __l__ *MIDDLE FINGER*
5th of July
Happy to see you again miss wong, and you too asshole chan! Hahahah!
Suck at whatever things im doing, what to do with it?
- Work
- Family
- Phone
- Miss Wong
WORK - Was really tiring everyday. Have to do much things because im still a junior in camp.
FAMILY - I really hope that my dad find a job and stop stressing himself. And really hope the worst wont come. My dad told me and my sister that are going to separate. Think for me and my sister, What we need and should do if you two really separate? I really dont know what to do anymore man.
Phone - MY FUCKING PHONE SPOIL AT THE FUCKING WRONG TIMING. Getting my new phone soon! Which will get me money again.
Miss Wong - Dear Miss Wong, i understand you still cant forget because him, but im still fighting with the jealous, the stress-ness and everything that i need fight for, for you! Its gonna be really tough for me, but think about it, why i am willing to do all this, let myself go through so much for you. Its because i fall back for you, i miss you, i know i never once ever let you go. And I Love You. But i cant tell you all this right now, because its gonna be so pointless. Thats why im standing here strong for you. No matter how big the rain and thunderstorm is gonna be, i will be standing up straight waiting for you. What meant to be , meant to be. I know, i just cant stop thinking about you. But i got my friends supports now. I really hope everything is going to goes smoothly and well. Thanks Miss Chan, Thanks Miss Tan.
*Miss V.Tan dont know about this anyway*
Have a good day guys, I hope it goes well to me too! (:
Happy to see you again miss wong, and you too asshole chan! Hahahah!
Suck at whatever things im doing, what to do with it?
- Work
- Family
- Phone
- Miss Wong
WORK - Was really tiring everyday. Have to do much things because im still a junior in camp.
FAMILY - I really hope that my dad find a job and stop stressing himself. And really hope the worst wont come. My dad told me and my sister that are going to separate. Think for me and my sister, What we need and should do if you two really separate? I really dont know what to do anymore man.
Phone - MY FUCKING PHONE SPOIL AT THE FUCKING WRONG TIMING. Getting my new phone soon! Which will get me money again.
Miss Wong - Dear Miss Wong, i understand you still cant forget because him, but im still fighting with the jealous, the stress-ness and everything that i need fight for, for you! Its gonna be really tough for me, but think about it, why i am willing to do all this, let myself go through so much for you. Its because i fall back for you, i miss you, i know i never once ever let you go. And I Love You. But i cant tell you all this right now, because its gonna be so pointless. Thats why im standing here strong for you. No matter how big the rain and thunderstorm is gonna be, i will be standing up straight waiting for you. What meant to be , meant to be. I know, i just cant stop thinking about you. But i got my friends supports now. I really hope everything is going to goes smoothly and well. Thanks Miss Chan, Thanks Miss Tan.
*Miss V.Tan dont know about this anyway*
Have a good day guys, I hope it goes well to me too! (:
Monday 4 July 2016
So many days i havent been Blogging, and im already facing so much! This post, i will be doing for the past 2 days and today!
2nd of July
After hiding my feelings and everything for so long, after thinking the feeling for you, its just temporary or its really real. I always thought its was temporary because i thought its was all must memories, see you with other guys make me jealous, thinking you make me miss you so badly.
After getting the guts to ask my sister about us , and i still cant believe that she even remember your name! CANNOT BELIEVE SERIOUSLY!!! And she support us too, Which remember that moment when i talk back to the table and smile and laughing? How happy i am? Hahaha! Then we went for walk together and you somehow reject me, which make me feel sucks, but am i giving up? No!! Of course i hope everyone support us too! really hope!
3rd of July
Saw you again, you didnt talk to me for like.. 1hour? I FEEL SUCKS, I FEEL LIKE SHIT! But what can i do , But to SUCK IT UP!!!! Something you told me , maybe i shouldnt say it here. But i remember something you always tell me.
'What Meant To Be, Will Be.'
So i will always remember, and if we need to start all over as friends, I wont mind because we are starting a new relationship like a new couple together.
AND MISS WONG, PLEASE REMEMBER THE PROMISES WE MADE FOR EACH OTHER ON THIS DAY.
4th of July
Which is today. A fucking bad day when my phone spoil! Cant contact anyone. Everytime when i take 184 , i will hope i will see you on the bus stop at NP , taking the same bus as you! When you are having holiday, i will be there hoping too! I hope everything goes right for me , i hope the promises we made for each other will come true. I hope everyone will support us too!
Thursday 23 June 2016
23/06/2016
Every new morning is a new day.
Every moment is a new moment.
We may going to miss what we going to lose, so remember the time to cherish what you could before everything is going to be gone. You wont know when the things you love or like will be gone, because nobody's know it. Only god knows. He wont tell us. I cant guess. So what you guys can do, that you wont walk the same path as i do, is cherish what you have with you now, the things you had, the people you know, love, like and everything.
When i can feel the feeling again, the feeling that my heart and mind is telling me that 'This is the one' Like how my feeling goes toward for SHIR.
I will never ask someone that how you feel about me. But i never did, because I might not like what you going to say about me. Hahaha.
Working really stress me out in the day time. Reach back home and have stress about this and that again. When can i have peace? When can i relax my mind and heart, and not FUCKING FEEL ANYTHING. IM NUMB, SO FUCKING NUMB ALREADY . I DONT KNOW HOW LONG I CAN TAKE IT.
Every moment is a new moment.
We may going to miss what we going to lose, so remember the time to cherish what you could before everything is going to be gone. You wont know when the things you love or like will be gone, because nobody's know it. Only god knows. He wont tell us. I cant guess. So what you guys can do, that you wont walk the same path as i do, is cherish what you have with you now, the things you had, the people you know, love, like and everything.
When i can feel the feeling again, the feeling that my heart and mind is telling me that 'This is the one' Like how my feeling goes toward for SHIR.
I will never ask someone that how you feel about me. But i never did, because I might not like what you going to say about me. Hahaha.
Working really stress me out in the day time. Reach back home and have stress about this and that again. When can i have peace? When can i relax my mind and heart, and not FUCKING FEEL ANYTHING. IM NUMB, SO FUCKING NUMB ALREADY . I DONT KNOW HOW LONG I CAN TAKE IT.
Tuesday 21 June 2016
21/6/2016
As now, SOMEONE KNOW MY BLOG LE! FUCK! YES ITS YOU. But its okay, keep it a secret of who i am okay? Because just everything within me and i dont wish to share with anyone.
Do i felt better? To be honest, i dont felt good every single day. But there is nothing i could do. So much thing i did, and felt so fucking regret about it. When through so much, but i really want to be a better, if i really change myself, i wont be myself anymore, you wont see a me that is going to make you guys laugh, smile and everything. Or should i be the asshole that make you guys laugh and smile?
Tell me what to fucking do man. She, Jw change me so much. Talk to me then awhile more they broke up, then your lovely ex, push all the blame to me, how you expect me to feel? Hahaha. SHIT. She, Sh hurt me so badly, left me and get together with another guy, but we Hugged, held our hands, what you expect me to feel to? Expect me to feel nothing? IMPOSSIBLE.
All i can do is to tell both of you, all the best to you and your future. I know if i never get of you two. I will never ever going to possible live a better and happier life .
Do i felt better? To be honest, i dont felt good every single day. But there is nothing i could do. So much thing i did, and felt so fucking regret about it. When through so much, but i really want to be a better, if i really change myself, i wont be myself anymore, you wont see a me that is going to make you guys laugh, smile and everything. Or should i be the asshole that make you guys laugh and smile?
Tell me what to fucking do man. She, Jw change me so much. Talk to me then awhile more they broke up, then your lovely ex, push all the blame to me, how you expect me to feel? Hahaha. SHIT. She, Sh hurt me so badly, left me and get together with another guy, but we Hugged, held our hands, what you expect me to feel to? Expect me to feel nothing? IMPOSSIBLE.
All i can do is to tell both of you, all the best to you and your future. I know if i never get of you two. I will never ever going to possible live a better and happier life .
Monday 20 June 2016
20/6/2016
Everyone know life suck. How much you did for other, Dont always expect for a repay.
I just miss the time we spend , but i guess its time to really really let you off my mind, my heart, and very where within me JW .
I just finished playing basketball with your favourite boy. Hahaha! I dont know what to feel seriously. Saw him, my mood went down and drop so badly.
I need more care and concern , i dont know who its gonna give it to me. But i believe by giving other care and concern i will get return.
I miss everything. Maybe they will say i looks like one of my friend. But i really miss everything. I miss how happy i am, how much love care and concern i get from everything, and i miss her. We may break up so long again. But its never easily to let go the memories we had together. I may still be sad, drinking, even crying. I know its never gonna help. Because i know you are gonna pop out within no where again. I will see you again for sure. What does this even means? Will are fated? Or coincidence? Hahaha! I dont know.
I want to happy again. No more sadness within my mind, my body, and my heart! ):
I just miss the time we spend , but i guess its time to really really let you off my mind, my heart, and very where within me JW .
I just finished playing basketball with your favourite boy. Hahaha! I dont know what to feel seriously. Saw him, my mood went down and drop so badly.
I need more care and concern , i dont know who its gonna give it to me. But i believe by giving other care and concern i will get return.
I miss everything. Maybe they will say i looks like one of my friend. But i really miss everything. I miss how happy i am, how much love care and concern i get from everything, and i miss her. We may break up so long again. But its never easily to let go the memories we had together. I may still be sad, drinking, even crying. I know its never gonna help. Because i know you are gonna pop out within no where again. I will see you again for sure. What does this even means? Will are fated? Or coincidence? Hahaha! I dont know.
I want to happy again. No more sadness within my mind, my body, and my heart! ):
Wednesday 25 May 2016
2
Hey guys, i may not say who i really am. Maybe its not the right time yet, but one day i will! I promised!
Work today, So tiring. Worst still there is nothing that is motivating me. Maybe i just miss being love, BUT I'M 101% to take my next relationship! But when will it come to me? Today? Tonight? Tomorrow? Next week? Next month? Next year? Hahaha. No matter who you are. I know i wont let you go any more. Life is short. I don't want lose anyone that is important to me any more, it hurts so badly, really badly.
Whoever you are, i need you now..
Work today, So tiring. Worst still there is nothing that is motivating me. Maybe i just miss being love, BUT I'M 101% to take my next relationship! But when will it come to me? Today? Tonight? Tomorrow? Next week? Next month? Next year? Hahaha. No matter who you are. I know i wont let you go any more. Life is short. I don't want lose anyone that is important to me any more, it hurts so badly, really badly.
Whoever you are, i need you now..
Tuesday 24 May 2016
1
I miss everything, really like everything.
I'm sorry for what I've done. But i cant do anything unless you guys want give me a chance to see my changes in me. I'm really trying my very very best in everything i do.
Who can be here for me? Nobody. No One.
I'm sorry for what I've done. But i cant do anything unless you guys want give me a chance to see my changes in me. I'm really trying my very very best in everything i do.
Who can be here for me? Nobody. No One.
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