7th of July
Hello guys! But in the end, There is only one person that is reading it! Hahaha!
My Mood today wasn't really very good, have been so stress out and all from this morning till now, what should i do?
The jealousy i felt so much today was like killing me so badly. She went out with Mr Lee, and only reply me so little for 3 hours. 3 hours of waiting, i know its gonna be worth it. But there is only a boy and a girl outside, nobody else was with them. Tell me then, how wouldnt i feel jealous, how not to think too much about it! Do anyone even understand how i feel?
I know you have school, i have work everyday. But of course i will make time for you, but will you? Im waiting everyday, every moment for you to ask me out, hinting you to ask me out and all. I know when i ask you, you wont so.
How afraid i am to lose you? Umm.. VERY VERY AFRAID! I lose you once, and god made me fall back in love with you, i believe it means something. I know now this time, i will feel so bad, suffering a lot. Im able to endure everything, because i wish that it will change better everyday! I wish that one day everything is gonna be worth of a pain. Its really hurtful, and i just cant show it to you, my friends or my family!

5th of July
PART 2?
FUCK I HATE THIS FEELING, Im just jealous, im sorry! But still have to act that im strong, act that im still happy and smiling, asking about 'How was it meeting him?' But at least you are happy? Hahaha!
What can i do then? SUCK IT UP!!
Where i stand?

SO
FUCKING
STRESS
ABOUT
EVERYTHING __l__ *MIDDLE FINGER*

5th of July
Happy to see you again miss wong, and you too asshole chan! Hahahah!
Suck at whatever things im doing, what to do with it?
- Work
- Family
- Phone
- Miss Wong

WORK - Was really tiring everyday. Have to do much things because im still a junior in camp.

FAMILY - I really hope that my dad find a job and stop stressing himself. And really hope the worst wont come. My dad told me and my sister that are going to separate. Think for me and my sister, What we need and should do if you two really separate? I really dont know what to do anymore man.

Phone - MY FUCKING PHONE SPOIL AT THE FUCKING WRONG TIMING. Getting my new phone soon! Which will get me money again.

Miss Wong - Dear Miss Wong, i understand you still cant forget because him, but im still fighting with the jealous, the stress-ness and everything that i need fight for, for you! Its gonna be really tough for me, but think about it, why i am willing to do all this, let myself go through so much for you. Its because i fall back for you, i miss you, i know i never once ever let you go. And I Love You. But i cant tell you all this right now, because its gonna be so pointless. Thats why im standing here strong for you. No matter how big the rain and thunderstorm is gonna be, i will be standing up straight waiting for you. What meant to be , meant to be. I know, i just cant stop thinking about you. But i got my friends supports now. I really hope everything is going to goes smoothly and well. Thanks Miss Chan, Thanks Miss Tan.
*Miss V.Tan dont know about this anyway*

Have a good day guys, I hope it goes well to me too! (:

So many days i havent been Blogging, and im already facing so much! This post, i will be doing for the past 2 days and today! 

2nd of July 

After hiding my feelings and everything for so long, after thinking the feeling for you, its just temporary or its really real. I always thought its was temporary because i thought its was all must memories, see you with other guys make me jealous, thinking you make me miss you so badly. 

After getting the guts to ask my sister about us , and i still cant believe that she even remember your name! CANNOT BELIEVE SERIOUSLY!!! And she support us too, Which remember that moment when i talk back to the table and smile and laughing? How happy i am? Hahaha! Then we went for walk together and you somehow reject me, which make me feel sucks, but am i giving up? No!! Of course i hope everyone support us too! really hope! 

3rd of July 

Saw you again, you didnt talk to me for like.. 1hour? I FEEL SUCKS, I FEEL LIKE SHIT! But what can i do , But to SUCK IT UP!!!! Something you told me , maybe i shouldnt say it here. But i remember something you always tell me. 

'What Meant To Be, Will Be.'

So i will always remember, and if we need to start all over as friends, I wont mind because we are starting a new relationship like a new couple together. 

AND MISS WONG, PLEASE REMEMBER THE PROMISES WE MADE FOR EACH OTHER ON THIS DAY. 

4th of July

Which is today. A fucking bad day when my phone spoil! Cant contact anyone. Everytime when i take 184 , i will hope i will see you on the bus stop at NP , taking the same bus as you! When you are having holiday, i will be there hoping too! I hope everything goes right for me , i hope the promises we made for each other will come true. I hope everyone will support us too!