Thursday 23 June 2016

23/06/2016

Every new morning is a new day.
Every moment is a new moment.
We may going to miss what we going to lose, so remember the time to cherish what you could before everything is going to be gone. You wont know when the things you love or like will be gone, because nobody's know it. Only god knows. He wont tell us. I cant guess. So what you guys can do, that you wont walk the same path as i do, is cherish what you have with you now, the things you had, the people you know, love, like and everything.
When i can feel the feeling again, the feeling that my heart and mind is telling me that 'This is the one' Like how my feeling goes toward for SHIR.
I will never ask someone that how you feel about me. But i never did, because I might not like what you going to say about me. Hahaha.
Working really stress me out in the day time. Reach back home and have stress about this and that again. When can i have peace? When can i relax my mind and heart, and not FUCKING FEEL ANYTHING. IM NUMB, SO FUCKING NUMB ALREADY . I DONT KNOW HOW LONG I CAN TAKE IT.

Tuesday 21 June 2016

21/6/2016

As now, SOMEONE KNOW MY BLOG LE! FUCK! YES ITS YOU. But its okay, keep it a secret of who i am okay? Because just everything within me and i dont wish to share with anyone.
Do i felt better? To be honest, i dont felt good every single day. But there is nothing i could do. So much thing i did, and felt so fucking regret about it. When through so much, but i really want to be a better, if i really change myself, i wont be myself anymore, you wont see a me that is going to make you guys laugh, smile and everything. Or should i be the asshole that make you guys laugh and smile?
Tell me what to fucking do man. She, Jw change me so much. Talk to me then awhile more they broke up, then your lovely ex, push all the blame to me, how you expect me to feel? Hahaha. SHIT. She, Sh hurt me so badly, left me and get together with another guy, but we Hugged, held our hands,  what you expect me to feel to? Expect me to feel nothing? IMPOSSIBLE.
All i can do is to tell both of you, all the best to you and your future. I know if i never get of you two. I will never ever going to possible live a better and happier life .

Monday 20 June 2016

20/6/2016

Everyone know life suck. How much you did for other, Dont always expect for a repay.
I just miss the time we spend , but i guess its time to really really let you off my mind, my heart, and very where within me JW .
I just finished playing basketball with your favourite boy. Hahaha! I dont know what to feel seriously. Saw him, my mood went down and drop so badly.
I need more care and concern , i dont know who its gonna give it to me. But i believe by giving other care and concern i will get return.
I miss everything. Maybe they will say i looks like one of my friend. But i really miss everything. I miss how happy i am, how much love care and concern i get from everything, and i miss her. We may break up so long again. But its never easily to let go the memories we had together. I may still be sad, drinking, even crying. I know its never gonna help. Because i know you are gonna pop out within no where again. I will see you again for sure. What does this even means? Will are fated? Or coincidence? Hahaha! I dont know.

I want to happy again. No more sadness within my mind, my body, and my heart! ):